IT WAS NOT ENOUGH... Chapter 3 - Her

She woke up late at night, seemed like she slept... but her eyes were causing her pain, she rubbed them.. sat and saw extremely strong rain outside the window. From there it looked like all the rain drops were falling into a black hole... even thought she didn't touched alcohol this day, she still felt like she was going through a small hangover. 

She left her bed... and stopped for a second, everything was spinning... she looked outside and she didn't knew if she took something before sleep or it was just because she felt anxious, but she also had an imagination that she is not alone here. She looked around and realized that this apartment was more empty than ever... it was weird for her, she knew she has something not right with the head but at the same time she was feeling normal. She rubbed her eyes once more... it felt like she had sand under her eyelids. The feeling of not being alone was getting stronger... so she decided to go outside in the middle of the night. 

Black hoodie, jeans dark shorts and the only pair of shoes she truly liked - red trainers. She took her phone, headphones and some money... having a plan to buy some snacks and go to visit Han river. 

When she was passing by every street, lights seemed to fade away more and more... like the night was consuming every amount of light. Suddenly she remembered this photo that her ex-friend Steph send on the group. Sa Nyo stopped in the middle of an empty, narrow street and opened her galery of photos. She deleted everything, but this photo remained in "Unknown" folder... his shirtless body and this damn hoodie she had on her right now. 

He was... one of not many good things that happened to her. A few months ago in the days when she was strong enough to be herself... she got a job as a model in an photoshoot with one of the most famous kpop groups. She wasn't a fan of them or of any other group, but for the sake of their collaboration... she forced herself to check some stuff about them. 

Mostly... she read how talented and amazing they were. All seven members... BBAMs... big collaborations. She listened to some of their songs... and she thought too - that they are something! She couldn't help but just feel excited to see them on her own eyes... but.. she was expecting also a wave of hateful fans after the photoshoot her agency planned for her. At The day of work... she wore a white dress. Waited under her house for the manager to get her... wait.. no. It wasn't her house... she focused more... to realize that the house from which she went out that day was a property of her boyfriend from that time.. she also remember a taste in her mouth, a taste of steel.. she smiled bitterly to herself. 

This man was one of the reasons of who she become... he couldn't get the idea of her working as a model, posing and letting another man (also girls...) to touch her body or look at her all the day. He thought that she is a strip model or sometimes mentioned that she makes some extra-staff for her manager and boss to get good propositions. 

That day for the first time... he slapped her in the face, the taste she felt in her mouth.. was blood. She took her things and left his house... but before going on the street she forced a bright smile. "Why don't you seat here?" asked her manager showing the seat next to him... she couldn't hold back anymore her tears, she just told him to drive.. so he did..

She moved from the street ... passed a few good looking houses and visited a small shop, bought snacks and realized her phone was vibriting without stopping... someone was calling, but whoever it was they could be sure she won't respond. 

She worked with the group everyday from a few to a lot hours a day... and couldn't help just to get along with them. Each of them was nice.. and unique in some ways. Humble Namjoon. Sweet Jimin. Sassy Taehyung. Nice Jin. Always positive and energetic J-Hope. Kind Jungkook and finally always silent Suga. He looked like he wished to be somewhere else everytime he had to go and pose...
She approached him with coffe one day and sat next to him in silence.. 
- What's that for? - she shrugged her shoulders smiling lightly. He was observing her for a bit, then she turned her gaze on him, stood up and  leaned over him, grabbing a paper cup of coffee, embracing his hand.
- If you don't want this... I can take it back? - intense stare he gave her, made her feel something between chills and unhealthy excitement...